*Heartiful

This is the part where you laugh

Err...Not again with the sorrow...

Fri Jun 27, 2008, 6:30 PM

Mood: Happy
Listening to: If there was Japanese text I'd try to type it here
Reading: Old letters from Bri
Watching: The Calendar :D
Playing: T^T Don't be silly
Eating: Stupid flu has me down
Drinking: Liquids? Lol

Yep, it has returned..*wipes eyes* I feel so distant and helpless if only there was SOMETHING I could do..I can't stand the pain anymore...Every second is a revolving memory...I want to share new memories with Bri, but..I can't..I dunno if I ever will. Her yahoo IM is gone, I'm blocked...I dunno if we'll ever speak again..I'm trying so hard to feel better...but, everything I see, there's Bri..Everything I hear, there's Bri...Everything I do..There's Bri...I'm going loco! I can't even do the things I love anymore...I know I was happy for a period of time, but, it came around, the feeling of guilt, the sorrow, the revolving pain of knowing I'm hated...What can a dumb person like me do to get things back to the way they were?! The only thing keeping me going, you guessed it right, is Bri..I have little hope, but...If it was gone, I'd...Be so afraid. I already am afraid now...What on earth do I do?! I know I need to shut up and suck it up..Alright...I've said enough...

P.S. My mood is not happy!! It is very very sad!

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*Willheart

Jun 27, 2008, 6:40:42 PM

Oh no you did a very good thing in writing this journal!

I can related to how you feel. You having been stricken with great anxiety have you. D:

I've been feeling it a little myself lately. Mainly cause my freind and I haven't really talked in two weeks. So I just think of the more logical and senseible reason. I know how one "What if" question can esclate to the extreme. -nod-

I feel a claming sensation when she told me a few days she's been rather busy lately.

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_{I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE.}

*Willheart

Jun 27, 2008, 6:41:02 PM

calming******

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_{I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE.}

*Heartiful

Jun 27, 2008, 7:13:42 PM

I just feel crappy about all this T^T

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"Sweeney Todd! with barbers this hot, you'll shoot your own Boyfriend!" - Envious-Chiko

I love my sister

February 16th, 2007, the best day of my life
May 23rd,2008, the worst day of my life

*Willheart

Jun 27, 2008, 7:25:47 PM

I don't blame you buddeh. -clings to- D:

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_{I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE.}

*kiki-bozu

Jun 27, 2008, 7:57:21 PM

Okay, let's just be blunt because beating around the bush gets you nowhere- you said it yourself, you need to suck it up. It's easy to dwell on stuff, and I won't lie and say I don't do it all the time, but in the end you're just wasting time. It's okay to be sad, but you can't always be focused on what's getting you down.

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"Close your eyes and pretend it's all a bad dream. That's how I get by."

-Jack Sparrow

~Maxthekittykat

Jun 27, 2008, 8:17:50 PM

you can't change the past, whats happened has happened and you can't change any of that, keep the good memories of the past, but for the rest let go of it and keep moving forward, thats from meet the robinsens i think... oh well

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Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye. ~ Nickelback Photograph. Proud friend of :devSqurit-the-Turtle: icon made by =Gie

~maniacaldude

Jun 27, 2008, 8:23:23 PM

What happened?

If it involves Bri's mom, I'll kill her!

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"Oh, of course they're still alive! They survived Thanksgiving dinners more threatening than that."
-The Nostalgia Critic, "Tom & Jerry: The Movie"

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*Heartiful

Jun 27, 2008, 8:40:55 PM

I'm just filled with sorrow again >.>

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"Sweeney Todd! with barbers this hot, you'll shoot your own Boyfriend!" - Envious-Chiko

I love my sister

February 16th, 2007, the best day of my life
May 23rd,2008, the worst day of my life

*Heartiful

Jun 27, 2008, 8:42:20 PM

I know and I try to get my mind off things. I try not to focus on it. I'm not making an excuse, I mean, someday, It won't hurt as bad. You'd feel bad if you couldn't talk to Capaow, right?

--
"Sweeney Todd! with barbers this hot, you'll shoot your own Boyfriend!" - Envious-Chiko

I love my sister

February 16th, 2007, the best day of my life
May 23rd,2008, the worst day of my life